下高铁时，女儿说，刚才有两个姐姐在说我的头发很丑，像男孩。我很生气。

那时，说这番议论 的小女孩母亲赶紧教育：不能这样说妹妹头发难看，后面一通我也没听见，也没去看他们长啥样。

后边女儿自己说，头发长了，每天要扎辫子，吹头发，爸妈没有这么多时间。 像是在懂事的安慰自己。 我跟她说，我们每个人，就像躲在癞皮狗毛发里的虱子，津津有味地吃着碎皮屑。有虱子说，自己的五根毛比三根毛那只虱子漂亮。另外又有虱子说，自己长长的肚子，比那只圆鼓鼓的虱子更可爱。有的虱子，爬到毛发山顶，看到了星空。 他就觉得，大部分虱子都像傻子，说的都是没有意思的东西，根本不要在意他们说的啥。

I stay this Saturday nearly 12 hours offline, without touching any screen, instead I spend the time hanging aound with my 14 month daugher and reading 50 page book.It is great.

During these 12 hours I have several impuse for reaching to a computer or my Cellphone, but I restaint myself.

I am 34 years old and grownup in a country village, a valley surrounded by mountains. these is only one way go to the town, before I was 15 years old, the TV-set was blaclk and white, only can reach to Channel. The martial action soup operal were our favourite and topics on the way to school.

The books we can only borrow from the school library , and there is a uncle whose son and daugher graduated from university 10 years old, which I can also borrow some books. So I spend most of the time amuse myself by reading books.

When I was feeding the cattles, I carried a book . When I was helping my mum firewood , I was reading. When I was adrift in the hot Summer nights, I was reading. When My dad was drunk and I need escape from his scron, I was reading in the woods. Reading almost is all my amusement. Mostly I read biographyes, History , Novel, Poem,not that much science, nedd less to say commerce or Philosophy. It is alsmost the only time which I can invest big chunk of my time, and immerse myself in reading.

Other than reading books, I help the family cut wood for fire wood , climbed to the high mountains and carried back heavy wood almost heavy as myself for 2 kilometer mountain trail. It is not easy Job, as we are newcomers—Immigrants. We need sneak around and steal the wood from neighbour villagers, as ours land is poor and not yet ripe for harvest. So always, we come team up with our peers, started almost at the evenening, when sunset is approaching, and select the mountains which are far way from village residents. We talked on the way and struggled, helped each other back home. The soound of sind in the mountain valley, the scent of the wild flowers, the howling of birds or insects, the sound of the running stream, small falls, The medow. The taste of the wild fruits. Even 20 years later, I am still bring back to these moutains in dreams.

For Chines traditional literacy , like poems. Most of the time, It is very easy for me to understand the meaning, or appeciate the beaunty of the poems. As I had experienced the wild nature, I had suffered the struggle.

The food for a peasent family is far from sufficient, as pork is expensive, not even mention about beef and lamb. Still my father , or my grandfather would manager onvce in a while perared meat for a big treat, at that time every family member was invited, and the kids, our parents, uncles, aunts were all heling around. Kids were helping or chasing each other. We spend long afternoons or nights with each other.

When harvest season was coming, starting from the rice padding, helped each other. After that it comes to collecting calmory seeds, also my parents will join their friends go a long way to the dense mountains for collecting , since the owner usually will desert it for too much work. It is also rarely alone.

It seems for the poor peasents, we are forced for these work to survive, and all these Jobs are not easy, but most of them work very happy. Big chunk of Time was spend together, if not, like me , I turned to reading books. Or if you like, may go fishing or hungting. The interest or the meaning of life , need you invest chunk of time for exploring, experiencing. And back then, everybody can afforded it, we have nothing to offer but our time and hands.

Back nowadays, most of us had emigrate to the cities,got a job, in the office or start out our own business. Your time is fragmented by all kinds of trivels or importan things, you have a lot of thing need to follow, too much peer pressure. You got the social media, you want to imprese your friends , your customers, you want to sell something. YOu would like to know what is the status for your peers. And you check your feeds for trend , for topics , to worry to be left behind.

The chances that you got a big chunk of time wihtout being disrupted is slim. Your focus is spread , you energy is dilluted by adrift to social media, your emotioal strength was dring exhausted by peer pressure. There is less time for you to engage in the most important thing, caring you family, you kids, pursuring the meaing of your life, follow your hobbys.

It is just like your brain was packed full .There is a research that if you spend time on porngraphy, then your brain would spare other connetion’s energy to sustain your instant gratification, and leaves you nothing else for other creative thinking. By building up this habbit, in no time , you will become dumb ass.

Boredom is important , for your brain to be activated. Mediation is important, spares you intelectual and emotional strength , like cleasing . Long walk is important, for building a fit body and a clean mind.

Staring to log your time investment, plan you life.